Hmm, I'm correct, he's got a prospect. And Roddel said that they are good in hiding. They also date a lot. Ouch! Good. If they are good hiders, then that would prevent me from crying because I don't want to cry for a very shallow thing. Good. Hide them from me, especially the girl, not because I will do something to her (cheap!) but I don't want to cry whenever I see them. Even just one of them. Good thing I didn't make assumptions too early. I might end up hurt. Hehehe, anyway, I don't want to get serious with these stupid things. I don't want to cry for such shallow reasons. :cry: Anyway, I'm still happy coz I already exist in his environment. If not fully-existent, then probably, half-existent. But I'm contented, at last I already exist. I hope that I will always be existent. I should be happy for him. I need to find a new prospect for myself.

I went to Roddel's house with Edgar for our research proposal. Anthony and Jonathan are part of the group but they didn't come. Jonathan is in Taguig for a Math training and I don't know what happend to Anthony, his phone is always out of reach. But he's making the methodology anyway, hehehe...

No classes today! Yipeee! Anyway, I was't able to watch the episodes of Samurai X coz I didn't know that they aired it on Saturday... argh! Stupid fever of mine.

Ah, my poem. I made this poem last Monday, the day I was absent. I was kinda inspired to do this. I was melancholic and I took advantage of that feeling to do something productive like a poem. It's been a long time since I made a poem like this out of my feelings. Come, analyze this! Teeheehee...

For an Angel, From an Artist

Feeling soemthing for an Angel, I can't resist
Though in your exclusive world, I do not exist
It's like I'm cut into bits when I see your face
But you never notice me even just a trace

I may seem normal and ultimately happy
But my heart is suffering in melancholy
My creations that were once bright and elated
Have turned gloomy, disconsolate and dejected

Do you know it's killing me inside day by day?
Yet the only medicine I have is to pray
That one day I may forget this stupid feeling
Which does nothing but to destroy my whole being

I don't expect an Angel flying high above
Someone like me, a mediocre artist, to love
I just want my existence for you to notice
And when that happens, I will uncover true bliss

Take note of the last two lines. Right now, I'm not suffering melancholy anymore coz I have uncovered true bliss just this Thursday. I felt that now, I already exist in his environment. Teeheehee... sanguinity again!

Yesterday, we had no finite math. No choleric teacher whose eyebrows always meet. I saw Christopher and got excited to approach him. He said that he's going to Yssa, who is in front of M-33, Faraday's room. I came with him and many Ptolemy people were there. Suddenly, Niña, the girl who crushes on Anthony asked me why I was there. I felt my nerves go up to my brain. Like duh. I just told her that it's because my former classmates were there, which is actually the truth. She's confusing. Last year, she's making me a big deal. There's this "close kami"-effect. But yesterday, I felt like she's making me go away from their territory. Yikes. Do I really need to tell everyone who my crush is?? Three people are enough. Probably, I'll tell Christopher. My best boy bud has the right to know it!

Yeah, my title says it all. I'm sick. I wasn't able to go to mass yesterday. Wah! :cry: It's Monday and I'm here in front of the computer, meaning, I'm not in school, I'm absent. Anyway, I think I'm well now.

Did you know that I the only episodes of Samurai X I haven't watched yet are the episodes for today? Yipeeeeee! I can watch the battle between Shougo and Kenshin! Yipeeee! Thanks for my fever. I can watch TV! Yipeeee! See the good side of my fever? Teeheehee... Unfortunately, Edgar said that we are having a quiz in Physics and ComSci, and there are no make-up quizzes there so I get zeroes on those quizzes... Geez! The bad side of my fever. I only got it yesterday. I was playing the computer before lunch and I was feeling very uneasy until we had lunch. I thought it was only because of the heat, but I was wrong. I had fever. It's been a long time since I got sick eh.

Anyway... I'll post next time about my addiction to Star Wars!

Yipeee!! My brother borrowed DVD's of Naruto from his former classmate, but the bad news is he'll get it about next semester because there are 7 people who also borrowed ahead of him. And the total time is 48 hours, so it will take days before a person finishes watching the DVD's.

I'm continuing my swimming career! I also want weights like Rock Lee's (but not as heavy as his!!! Mind you!) I want to be a fast runner and faster swimmer.

Guess the sacond week of classes gave me the chance to know my mateys BETTER. We even managed to get each other's cell/phone numbers. Well, I think I'm beginning to enjoy the company of these people:

• Gemdrei. She isn't really a sanguine, but she's really a good matey! I swear!


• Angelica. She looks like Angelica (Gigay) and she's nice and she also smiles a lot!


• Ephraim Paul (artistahin). He called himself "artistahin" coz I don't really know what to call him (pressure?!). Hihihi! Talking with him is easy. Even if he didn't go to class from the 2nd to the 5th day!


• Karl (kuya-kuyahan ko 'to!). Ahihi! With strings attached and bago kong kuya-kuyahan! Nice and very easy to talk with. He's not as phlegmatic as before. Na-hawa lang daw?!

Anyway, I'm beginning to get boy-boggled... again! Dan told me that I should say it. But I don't think I should do that because I might end up being laughed at. I don't exist in his environment. (Drama?!) Ahihi! Tumatawa ako pero deep inside naiiyak na yung puso ko. (Matalinhaga ata yun ah?) I have a good plan. If I still like him until March, I'll tell Dan to tell him. Anyway, there's a very tiny chance I'll be his matey even in just one subject in college. I still can't believe that I suddenly become melancholic whenever I see him! Dan said I shouldn't be. But what should I do? I was never boy-boggled like this before. Geez.

Waaaah! I won't be able to watch the battle between Kenshin Himura and Shougo Amakusa! Noooooo! It'll be aired on Monday and I won't get the chance! Waaaaaah!

Classes approached already. Classes for me means stress. Not enough sleep, no more Naruto and Samurai X and pimples.

Anyway, I can see that Franklin isn't full of snobs. In fact, most girls have talked to me and the boys, especially those at my back are really naughty.

• Astrid. This is my classmate from grade 2 to 6.


• Frances, Jeremie, Arian and Jolaz. Old mateys!


• Gerome. He also dwells in Valenzuela and we go home together. He's trying to court a former classmate from Ptolemy! Teeheehee! Together with Reynald and Artniel, theyr'e the boys who are seated at my back!


• Reynald. He is also a Star Wars Addict like me! He's a nice guy and he always talks to me! We copy each other's assignments!


• Artniel. A heck of a naughty but good guy. He also copies my assignments!


• Denise. She's the most phlegmatic person I've ever met! She never talks to anyone and I only hear her voice whenever she is called to recite.


• Karl. He's also a phlegmatic guy but I was surprised when he said something funny during TLE class! Who could guess that he actually plays GunBound?!


• Rozzamae, Mae and Masel. I'm totally clueless about them coz they're somehow isolated. I hope they'll breakaway.


• Olga, Rachel, Jean, Gemdrei, Angelica. They've talked to me and I think theyr'e good people. I like Jean! Haha!


• Karmina and Celine (I hope I spelled it correctly). They haven't talk to me. I think theyr'e just a bit shy. Teeheehee. I find Celine a cute girl. Petite frame and a small voice!


• Melvin. He also watches Naruto! Naruto rocks! Daffodils rock!


• Limmuele. Teeheehee! I've played GunBound with him when we were juniors and we also played last Friday!

Anyway, yesterday was Sunday and I went to church with my family at 6:00pm. Well, I went there and I felt like I haven't been there for a long time even if I went there last Sunday. Probably because I didn't go to Mass last Wednesday. That was a really odd feeling. Probably, I got very used to going there every Wednesday and then, Poof! classes started and I won't be attending the novena regularly. I also felt the urge of teaching Catechism in Tahilan. But first, I have to attend Catechism myself. Care to join me?

I badly need to reformat my blog. I'm not happy with the colors, coz they are super disorganized. Anyway...

I went to UP today. I thought that the line for passing the application form was looooooong, but I was wrong it took me around 3 minutes in the line. I actually brought a book but I didn't read much. Actually, I didn't pay the fee early, so I had to go to PNB first before passing my application form. It was my first time to deposit at the bank, not to mention that I'm alone. I also forgot my other 2x2 ID pix so I had to take rush ID pictures (only 5 minutes!). I was really amazed because UP's got it all for you! The shopping center was cool, I mean cool, not because it was beautiful, but cool because everything a student needs is there! My brother actually took me to the Admissions Office and left me there. So I was able to go to places alone. I also found out that UP Toki is different from UP Ikot! Teehee! I thought it was the same, until the driver told a student that she should ride UP Toki, and not UP Ikot! Heehee! Good thing the driver mentioned that! I also discovered that there are jeeps that will take you directly to SM North Edsa! My very first well-known mall! Hey, I gained temperance a while ago coz I didn't enter SM North Edsa a while ago, even if I was in front of it already! I didn't want to see any product that will cause me to use my mom's money. When I was in Robinson's last Monday, (I went to school to pick up Form 2 for UP) I didn't resist the urge to buy the pink beaded cuff from Kristenzz, fearing that it will be gone when I come back! It only costed P50, but I thought it costed more. So, I was attracted more. Yikes.

I want to be called "Iskolar ng Bayan"! I really need to, or else we don't have money to pay the tuition in Ateneo or Mapua.

Hey, I also realized something. That I don't really want an iPod coz I'm not actually into many music genres. I have a very limited choice of the songs I love. Haay. I also realized that I want or need one or more pairs of Havaianas when I enter college, coz I need a very comfortable footwear if I enter college. NOT exactly Havaianas, but a good pair of flip-flops. Sabi kasi sa Teen Talk forum, di daw napupudpod ang Havaianas kaya na-amaze ako. Besides, $10 lng nman ang traditional pair eh. And, I don't really need a pair with prints, because the prints won't be seen anyway! I saw two students a while ago in Havaianas. Probably, they love it because it's comfortable. But I don't love the price. Imagine $17 for a pair of flip-flops, more known as "tsinelas". In the Philippines, the cheapest is P615 and the costliest I've seen is P1095. Imagine a thousand bucks for a pair of flip-flops-slash-"tsinela s"!

I also got 4 pairs of branded loafers from my Aunt in USA. As of the moment, I have 7 loafers and I haven't used any of them. Nyak! I also don't know where to place my shoes, coz my shoe rack is already crowded. I'd rather get not-so-expensive shoes than those signature brands. If you sell one pair, that's probably equivalent to 2 or 3 pairs here! Haay. But I'm thankful about it. Very seldom that I get branded things. I never buy signature brands coz I think that it is a waste of money. Plus, many people are in need right now. They need their food more than I need those shoes! Hey, I have 3 pairs of black loafers and my mom need not buy me a pair of school shoes! Yey! I also got a pair of white drawstring pants, but I will reconstruct it to become cropped pants! At last! I've longed for white cropped pants for sooooooooo long!

Waaah! We are about to go to the mall on Sunday and eat there but it's postponed because our electric bill went up to 5,300 pesos! Waah! When we were in our old house, we only get to 2,000. But not anymore in our new one. Actually, the last time we went to the mall and ate there was December and never again. My mom only works overtime, just to buy our needs for this school year. She works from 8:00am to 8:00pm! She no longer goes with me to Church. Aww... But she said that we will watch the 4th episode of Harry Potter on November at the cinema! Yey! Did you know that our last cinema trip was Harry Potter 3! Teehee! We only go to the cinema during Harry Potter movies! Haha! I'm going very jubilant about going to the mall with my family. It seldom happens now. Crises arise and we can no longer afford to go to my favorite restaurant, Saisaki when someone celebrates his/her birthday. Last time we went there was March 2004, my brother's graduation. I miss California Maki a la Saisaki!